When a story begins in my head it’s a glimmer, a shadow of what the eventual finished story becomes. These glimmers offer hope, solace and a bit of comfort to my day.
Every glimmer is written down either on paper, on Evernote as a word doc or a project in Scrivener. I look through these files every once in a while like the mad scientist admiring his creations. Sometimes I do something with them other times they sit and wait for the right time.
It is this right time that worries me sometimes. There are always times when I worry the story will fade and I will lose what could have been a great story idea.
My current writing problem is exactly like that.
In one instance I have a story that has every element of a great story. But I have the hardest time writing it. The story would sell and would make a lot of people understand a generation and know them better and make them feel like they were a part of something wonderful. Then there is the other story that I write with ease and feel comfortable with and may not sell as well or probably won’t be picked up by an agent because it is too much like everything else being published right now, though I’ve never read any of the books that are popular nor have I picked them up and browsed them in a book store.
So this is what I’ve come up with: Write like I’m already published.
Only in doing that can I truly call myself a writer. I would have beaten back the demons that tell me I can’t write the story. I will push against the grains and fibers in my brain forcing myself to do something that it tells me not to.
I know the story needs to be written. There are only three people who know about this story. My wife, my “editor” and myself. My wife and editor love the idea and both have told me that I must write this one.
My editor went so far as to say “drop everything I’m writing and write it”. If that’s not a story endorsement I’m not sure I’ll ever see one.
So I am taking everything again, starting over. Finding where the story really begins. I thought I knew but I didn’t. This story is beautiful and really is what I want to write. I want to write books that change people. I don’t want to write the next best seller, though that would be nice. I really want to write a book that will make a difference.
Back to the story…